24hrs to surgery.....

How does one begin to imagine what life will be like in less than 24 hrs, when I wake up tomorrow after the surgery, a part of me will be gone. A part the body that most woman cherish and love to flaunt, and should be proud of your girls...you got it flaunt it.  

When I wake up, mine will be gone, not by choice but by the invasion of an uninvited guest who decided to take over my breast.   I have emotions of anger, sadness, heartache but most of all I have an inner strength to fight this demon.

I don't want to be a hero, I am hurting and suffering but the love and support of my husband, family and friends will get me through this. 

It is okay to yell, scream and cry is what people tell me, but right now I am numb. Numb to the knowledge that I have breast cancer, that I will have to have surgery tomorrow and then followed by chemo and radiation. Numb to the reality that our lives will change forever.  This numbness is temporary, and it will be taken over by victory, I will beat this and I will be a survivor