Radiation Therapy........ 25 rounds.....here I go.....

Once again I am in a position of the unknown, as human beings we always want to be aware and in control of our lives.  The reality is that at times we have no control over what happens and what follows.  

Today I begin what I pray is to be the final step in my treatment for my breast cancer.  I begin 25 rounds of daily radiation therapy.  It was great to be treatment free for the past 5 weeks, my hair is growing back as well as my eyebrows, they all seem to be coming in with a vengeance (lol).  I am looking forward to a normalcy to life to once again with no treatments, medications and side effects.  

How will life be after all this turmoil, who knows, will it ever be normal again, what is normal....

How can anything be normal again, I went to bed one day in November 2015 a healthy 40 year old and woke up the next day with a lump in my breast which was breast cancer.  How can anything be normal after that.  I cannot say how my life will be after going through all this, I can say that I will try my best to not allow it to take over my life. 

One day at a time is all we can all do in life, we all have ups and downs in our lifetime no matter how big or small, I believe that how we manage them and come out stronger is what is important. There will be days and trust me I have had many and still do, that are rough and tough and we become bitter and angry, and I strongly believe that it is a part of healing. Not sure how long it takes someone to get over the fact that cancer took so much away and maybe it never gets better but we learn to live with it. I would be a hypocrite if I said I have learned to live with it, no I am still very bitter and angry but I also have good days and I am extremely thankful of my outcome and being able to have beat cancer, many people are not so fortunate, and survivors guilt is very difficult also. 

So today I will walk in to the radiation room and yet again fight this battle with my head high and say to myself I will get through this no matter how ugly it can get. 

Thank you all so much for standing by me and supporting me in my fight. Most of all thank you to my husband for always being by my side. 

A little reminder, my team and I will be walking 5kn for the CIBC RUn for for the Cure on October 2, please help my team and donate to a cause that is my reality. 

Team: Breasts4life

Love 

Franca 

Round 1 is completed, not so bad. Feels just a little hot on the surface. Will keep you all posted with the next 24.