I can clearly remember the feeling in the pit of my stomach one year ago today. all the pre-op was done, scans, biopsies, MRI, blood tests and all I was doing was waiting for a part of me to be removed, actually taken away from me forever...yes they can always be reconstructed and have very perky breasts for a long time, but they wouldn't be mine. the feeling that I was not in control and that cancer had consumed me and my thoughts. I remember my husband and family all there with me, waiting for me to be wheeled in for surgery and praying that they would successfully take all the cancer out. I remember being in the operating room and my doctor spoke to me and tried to reassure me that all was going to go well, and then it was lights out, 3 hours later I woke up in the recovery room very groggy and very sore. I remember thinking, this is done and now I can breath a little better, I saw my husband as they wheeled me out of the recovery room and he had a sigh of relief on his face and yet we knew the battle was ahead of us. I remember the doctor announcing that all the cancer was removed and that there were no surrounding markers, 11 lymph nodes were removed and that I would be ok, every other treatment from there on would be as precaution and prevention. Everything still seems so raw in my mind and maybe it always will or maybe it will fade with time, but I believe that some life experiences stay with you forever.
Today one year later, I am back to the road of recovery from a 10 month battle. I knew that it was not going to be easy and that I would go through many emotions. As I said throughout many of my posts, I was ready to fight this with everything I had, I was not ready or willing to let cancer beat me. In the 10 months all I could think of was that I have a young daughter who needs me and a husband who adores me and that was my will to fight.
So, I went through double mastectomy, 15 rounds of chemotherapy, 25 rounds of radiation and now 10 years of Tamoxifen, but I did it, I beat cancer and hope and pray everyday that it never comes back.
Today February 12, 2017 is a great day, it is a date that I will remember and cherish forever, my doctor told me to celebrate and not worry about the what if's of life....they will always be there. one year ago I was not sure I was going to be here today celebrating life, my life as a cancer survivor,
I am beyond happy to be able to say that I am 1 YEAR CANCER FREE.
Thank you to my husband for being by my side every step of the way, to my daughter for coping with all the change the best way she could, my mom for all her help love and strength and to all my family and friends who were always there for us and always ready to help in any way they could. Lastly my followers (friends) thank you for all of your prayers and good wishes, it made my journey a little easier.
So today I ask that each and everyone you appreciate your life, at times difficult and stressful but you are alive and healthy, that is the most precious gift that your life can give you.
Celebrate life 💞💞💞💞
Franca
No comments:
Post a Comment