What can I say, it is rough and nasty and no one should have to go through this kind of physical and emotional torture. I must say that this 2nd treatment was very hard on me, it started in the chair while i was receiving my last drip for 1 hour, the fatigue kicked in so quick it sucker punched me. It was a feeling of not being in control of my body, complete exhaustion and the nausea, well that is something that just takes over. As soon as I got home from the treatment I literally knocked out for a few hours and felt helpless. The feeling of nausea and exhaustion last about 7-10 days and then I am back to myself before the next round.
A feeling of helplessness, fatigue, nausea, vomiting, almost complete hair loss, anger, pain, the loss of a part of my body, a part of myself.....all this, thanks to BREAST CANCER, well you know what FUCK YOU CANCER and you will not win. As hard and as painful as this journey is I will not let Cancer win. I will NOT allow Cancer take over my life.
Chemo therapy is something that no one will ever understand unless they go through it. I saw my dad die of cancer and it was a horrible part of my life, I always said that it is a disease that takes over your body, I will fight with everything that I have for my life and my world...
This journey is definitely not an easy one, I am an emotional wreck at times and I unload on my husband and he does not deserve it. He is so patient and so loving and is the best husband and friend I could've asked for, I am sorry for my outbursts, my tears, my craziness and everything we as a family are going through, all I can say is Thank You For loving Me.....😉
I am happy that by the next chemo session I will be halfway done......
ladies, please do not take anything for granted and always trust your instinct. Sunday is May 1st so as my inspiration Nalie Agustin lives by #feelitonthefirst.
A 2 minute self examine can save your life, early detection is key......
Love you all
Franca
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