Going on 14 years married and I can openly say that it has been a roller coaster in many aspects. I don't believe that any marriage is perfect, and if someone tells you so, they are living in a bubble. Our journey or test of love as I call it began almost 11 years ago when I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Little did we know what a ride we would be headed in, one that no parent ever imagines. We were having our first child, a beautiful little girl, we had so many expectations, hopes and dreams and many of them were shattered. We began with doctors and specialists at the mere age of 3 months old, heart surgery, epilepsy, developmental delays, intellectual disability, surgeries and so so many hospital stays....many years of tears and frustration, but my rock never left my side and always stood by our daughters side. I can understand how easy it can be for a relationship to fall apart and many times the option of running seems like the only option. Many hopes of what could've been and how life would've been, but our daughter has come so far and she is the light of both of our eyes, and we are so proud of her and all her accomplishments, no matter how big or small.
Just when we thought life was beginning to settle into our normal we get hit by the cancer bomb. My diagnosis came as a shock to myself as well as my husband, it was a lot to take in and process. This was a life altering bomb that hit us, without any warning. My first reaction was fear of death or the unknown, how will he raise our daughter on his own, what will happen and a million other thoughts being processed all at once. The shock was horrible for my husband, I could see the fear and uncertainty in his eyes, the same questions that I was asking myself. We can only be so strong for so long, eventually we need to crack and show our emotions and try to deal with them.
What can I say, once again he is by my side every step of the way, as a husband, father and best friend. During my many changes in appearance lately, as insecure and unattractive I feel right now, he is always ready to let me know how beautiful I am. For being by my side during my side effects of the chemo and not being functional for days while you deal with your own issues. For this I am eternally greatful. It is a crazy journey but it is our journey and together we will get through this. Although I have the cancer, it affects everyone around you one way or another.
Thank you my love for always being by my side when I knew how easy it would be to run, I love you today, tomorrow and forever.
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